Last week I had the flu, and it tipped me into a funk.  After I moped and felt bad for myself for a bit, my blah mood served as a catalyst to get clearer on some things.  My energy became a precious commodity, forcing me to think more intentionally about how I spend it.  I had to get up close and personal with what is really important to me, and sacrifice the rest.  This reflection led me to a Memo to Myself.  I started by asking myself what I valued most in life.  These were my brainstorming questions:

What really matters to me?  Imagining myself on my deathbed, what will I conclude was important?  (Yes, I get dramatic when I’m sick!)  Think of my role models.  What do they embody?

There are countless values, none inherently better than others.  It only matters that they’re yours.  These are mine.

Self-care, family, service to others, curiosity, presence

From there, I wrote this Memo to Myself.  A north star guiding how I want to focus and invest my limited time and energy.  More often than not, I know I will veer from this, scattering my energy around on autopilot instead of checking for true north.  But for moments when I am overwhelmed, lost, drained, or otherwise led astray, I plan to come back to my memo over and over again.

Memo to Myself

My ability to do the things I love and engage fully in life hinges on my ability to take good care of myself.  This means: unplugging, getting outside, dancing goofily, exercising at least 10 minutes a day, and engaging in activities outside of work and family.  And it means coming back to what’s important to me whenever I notice myself astray.

Then there’s family.  I’m committed to my marriage and my munchkins. I strive every day to be present with them when I’m with them.  Not half there and simultaneously coming up with a grocery list in my head.  Fully there.  And in the tough moments—the cranky, sleep-deprived, toddler is tantruming and I am losing my shit moments—I promise to take a deep breath and look for ways to reconnect with my buddha self.  You know, the part of ourselves we all have that can take a step back and get some perspective. 

 The next place I practice my sowing and reaping is in my inner circle of loved ones: my siblings and parents and my friends.  These relationships are vital to me.

 Then, all of this goes to support what on a global level I derive meaning from.  Service to others.  For me, this means things like listening deeply and respectfully, disseminating top-notch mental health treatment, making social contributions, and practicing kindness.

Finally, I value two more things very much. Curiosity—staying open to being wrong, open to new perspectives, open to new learning.  And Presence—practicing coming back to now, coming back to center, in the infinite moments of my day when I am pulled away from that.

When I am overwhelmed, this is simplifying.  When I am lost, this is clarifying.  And when I’m drained, this is my fuel for action.

If, as I felt last week, you are feeling overwhelmed, lost, drained, or stuck, have a look at this Values Roadmap and see if you can come up with your own Memo to Myself.  See if you can include ideals that help guide and push you, as well as brass tacks that are specific and implementable.  Then, for the next week, ask yourself, am I on point with my north star or off?  Use it as your fuel for action.